Let's look at what we've established so far.
- Chronology is non begotten, or else nothing is chronological.
- Possibility is non begotten, with chronology being fundamentally possible.
- All that exists was possible from the beginning of time.
- Every trait of every thing and every one is non begotten, an ontic component of Possibility fully described.
- Love is non begotten, required for Possibility to be put into action.
- The possibility of your every trait put into action may be required for your existence.
- If you didn't exist at the beginning of time then you were made by Love.
All these non begotten essences, let's call them Aeons. If they all were one at the beginning of time then that would require Oneness to be non begotten, and Plurality to be non begotten by default from Oneness existing distinguished. This would mean that Oneness and Plurality would simultaneously compose the essence of One at the beginning of time. One is seemingly much more non-dual than many Trinitarians can even comprehend. We've already established an infinite expanse beyond 3, with all these being non begotten at the beginning of time.
"The Dao gives birth to One, One gives birth to Two, Two gives birth to Three, Three gives birth to all things..." - Li Er, Daodejing
If you have free will then you are not alone, because otherwise you'd exist as One. If you had full free will from the beginning then that means you are non begotten, and at some point you limited what you could know for a time. An essence can't be made what it isn't, however, so some things are fundamentally impossible for you to have chosen. This means you couldn't change who you were, yet you could change the ways you were expressed. This makes both Expression and Possibility distinct from you, being peer Aeons.
In the scenario where you had ultimate choice and landed where you are now, that requires things you fundamentally couldn't do from the beginning of time. You couldn't will your self applied sentence of unknowing and powerlessness to stop with belief alone. You can't flap your human arms like wings and expect to fly on the basis of believing you can, you have to interact with a system where you redefine what human arms are. Are human arms a mechanism attached to your existing biology? I have titanium in my shoulder and I still consider my right arm human.
This system, it's fundamentally distinct from us. The essence of interaction, distinct entirely. The essence of awareness, also distinct. You can be You and still be unaware. Awareness and Awareness' Lacktherof both existed as traits of Possibility; peer Aeons if you were here at the beginning of time. If Consciousness was required to compose you then it would have existed simultaneously, with its essence being entirely distinct from You. Knowledge would have to preexist, with the process of learning and applying knowledge being impossible to consent to as You.
Completely distinct, either as parts from the beginning that aren't synonymous with the whole, or as parts that came along the way. Perhaps you were created after the beginning of time, with an absolute end that's built in because there's no further back you are... let's investigate that. This requires an absolute Love, causing you with nothing to gain or lose. No intention but for you to be, because that is all you will. Let's say you go on to decide something... A system with non-determined outcomes pre-exists, and it offers you these options:
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On closer inspection there's Lorem Ipsum in this. It seems copy pasted... this wasn't written to have meaning. You could look at that, decide it's just about anything, and then you've created something brand new. I believe "flavor text" is the industry term for something like this. It doesn't seem like it tastes like anything... What kind of chef serves Lorem Ipsum?